unintentional side-effects
internally bleeding,//
Lethargy.

self-sabotage
i destroy my own beauty//
High and then so low:: dark. deep, thoughts circle in my head
dark hours.
combust::
i need art, I need dance. I need to float through air. ~
i feel like shi*

pulled in so many directions.
can i just be.
at ease--
I hate myself. and I love myself..
// harnessing extremes.